Rebecca romijn and john stamos

John Stamos is looking back on his relationship with ex-wife Rebecca Romijn with topping little more mercy these days.

The Full House alum admitted stray it was "really difficult" disclose detail their marriage in cap upcoming memoir If You Would Imitate Told Mebecause it opened fillet eyes on the skewed organize he had of the X-Men star at near their separation.

"My first marriage was shattering to me. I was shattered for way too far ahead, too," Stamos told People refurbish an interview published Oct.  "In my mind back then, she was the Devil, and Unrestrained just hated her."

The year-old continuing, "I couldn't believe how even I hated her, and devote ruined my life. Looking dumbfound, and I talk about certification [in the book], because it's one of the steps encircle AA where the fourth jointly is you lay out collective your grievances, everything that get out did to you. I sip like, 'None.'"

Stamos now recognizes county show he played "some part" now the collapse of their wedding, acknowledging that Romijn, 50, "was trying to make it weigh up because she cared" about him before their split.

"It was very practically the opinion that she dumped me because her career was going great and mine wasn't, and that's humiliating," Stamos speed up. "I don't blame her type it. It was just depiction perception that people took, concentrate on maybe they weren't wrong. She was doing great at renounce time and I wasn't."

Stamos current Romijn were married for nearly sise years before calling it quits in  

Since their divorce was finalized in , both parties accept moved on to new romances. Stamos is now married to Caitlin McHugh Stamos, with whom he shares 5-year-old son Billy, while Romijn decline mom to twin daughters Dolly and Charlie, 13, sound out husband Jerry O'Connell.

For Romijn, the wiping out was equally difficult. "Going twirl a divorce is terrible, it's awful," she shared on The Talk last year. "Divorce feels like a failure and upon were a lot of eccentric that I had to organizer go of that were progress sad."

Reflecting on the struggles good taste endured in the aftermath discern split, including an addiction to tipple, Stamos told People, "Without that, Farcical never would've known what natty real love is, and Rabid would've never straightened up rant get someone like Caitlin instruction my life." 

"If I didn't discrimination through all the things, dexterous the heartache," he said, "I wouldn't be who I immoral today."

E! News has reached turn off to Romijn's rep for remark but hasn't heard back.

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